[Sing-a-song] I’m So Sad

Man, it’s been a long day

Kehilangan itu melelahkan.
Berusaha keras mencari cara untuk melupakan.
Padahal,apa memang harus dilupakan?

Siap jatuh cinta, berarti siap kehilangan.
Disebut merupakan ungkapan orang bijak.
Padahal, siapa yang ingin kehilangan yang dicinta?

Semakin berusaha melupakan, semakin tak rela kehilangan.
Berusaha membuat skenario alternatif, berharap perubahan ending.

Menambah perih? Tentu.
Sayang, terkadang manusia memilih menyakiti diri sendiri atas nama upaya pemulihan.

Wondering if I really tried everything I could

Not knowing if I should try a little harder

Oh, but I’m scared to death

That there may not be another one like this

And I confess that I’m only holding on by a thin thin thread

Saya meragukan kemampuan diri ini untuk bertahan. Percayalah, sakit memang bisa menjadi candu.

Proses pemulihan bisa jadi lebih menyakitkan. Itulah mengapa banyak yang enggan berusaha untuk ‘sembuh’.

Termasuk saya.

Entah sudah berapa kali saya meyakinkan diri. Namun selalu kehilangan tenaga (dan mungkin tekad) saat perjuangan untuk berhenti belum selesai.

Memang benar, memulai itu jauh lebih mudah daripada mengakhiri 😦

Saya tahu bahwa saya harus terus mencoba. Saya mungkin tak akan pernah terbiasa. Saya, hanya perlu terus yakin akan pilihan saya.

Saya pernah membaca tulisan tentang kita tak pernah berhenti mencinta, kita hanya berhenti peduli.



Sedihnya, saya tak bisa berhenti peduli…

90’s Songs – Let Me in Your Arms Again

Let Me In – OTT

loving you could be so easy, loving you could make me warm

but now that i know i need you, i promise that i’ll never leave you

won’t you please

let me in, let me in your arms again?

let me give my love to you..

Honestly, I didn’t knew OTT well.

I just love this song so much when I was kid and few days ago, this song just pop in my head. Suddenly I feel like sing this song all day long.

Okay, I knew, some of you might wonder, “How old is she?” since my posts was mostly talking about 90’s. I already mentioned it on my older post, so please just check it.

And, here come another topic. 90’s songs..

I have so many songs that I love from 90’s and “Let Me In” was one of them.

This song was talking about someone that regret his decision. He never thought that actually, that girl are easy to love and it never be the same without her.

I wonder, if I were that girl, can I forgive him easily?

Hm, honestly, six-pack, cute face, sweet voice, uh.. yeah,it would be enough to make me forgive them and let them in my arms again (..and again?)

Well, in my humble opinion, anyone deserve a second chance.

Anyone could make a mistake, in purpose or not..

But still, anyone deserve to get second chance. If they not use it wisely, it’s their lost, not yours..

Especially when it was about someone that you love, or your love story.

Like what I said before, there’s no perfect love story. People can do mistake, love can be hurt sometime, you are not always be right. So, second chance is not a bad idea, for me.

Anyway, would you share your 90’s songs or favourite song or favourite artist with me? Or maybe you would share with me about your love story? Just let me know..

Now if you excuse me, I was going to let these guys to get in my mind again..

Have a good time, people.



Sing-a-Song: I’m Gonna Be Around MLTR

Warning. This post is not about the song. It’s about my decision to become MLTR’s fan.

I love this guys. Seriously.

Not just how they create lovely songs, but how they keep in touch with their fans. I love how they always find way to make their fans feel closer to them. They keep updating their social network, make some fan-quiz.

I appreciate how they respect their fans, and make their fans love them more and I thought it was great way to spread their influence. Fans that already knew them for years would stick to them cause they are humble. And I would wonder if they not getting more fans than before.

What else do you need? They have great songs, humble personality and they love their fans! It was something that you hard to find in famous band.

Maybe you would say they just lucky to have great management and I think that good, though. Furthermore, no matter how good their management, they will go nowhere if they not have great songs, in my opinion.

It’s been so long since we took the time

to share words from deep inside us

We’re in our own world spinning our wheels

but you know how I feel

since the first time I took your hand

my love for you has just been growing

you always seem to understand

you know how I am

I’m gonna love you til the end

I’m gonna be your very true friend

I wanna share your ups and downs

I’m gonna be around

I love this guys from the very first, I feel bad that it took so long for me to realize how great they are and officially become their fan. I used to be only their follower. But, it never too late to start something good, right?



90’s Stars – Girl Power!

After 90’s boys series, now I want to talk about 90’s stars.

90’s stars was about boys  and or girls, group or solo, except the boys group cause I already talked about them a week ago. And, let me begin this series with Spice Girls *

How I met: Wannabe *

“If you want my future, forget my past

If you wanna get with me, better make it fast

Now don’t go wasting my precious time

Get your act together, we could be just fine”

The reason why they get my attention at the very first time was they strong characters. It attracted me, how they had nickname that describe them well. Geri ‘Ginger Spice’ Halliwell with her flaming red hair. Mel ‘Scary Spice’ Brown with her ‘scary’ look, Melanie ‘Sporty Spice’ C that ,yeah, sporty. Victoria ‘Posh Spice’ Adams (now, she known as Victoria Beckham) with her upper-class style and Emma ‘Baby Spice’ Bunton, the youngest and the girly girl.

Most favourite songs:

1. 2 Become 1 *

I need some love like I never needed love before

(Wanna make love to ya baby)

I had a little love, now I’m back for more

(Wanna make love to ya baby)

Yes, I knew this song when I still just a little girl. That’s not my favourite part when I was young. I only knew “cause tonight is the night when two become one..” And, yes, I also feel like “Oh God, why..” when remember this song. Think how I like this song and had no idea this song was about “that”.

2. Mama *

“She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free

Catching me in places that I knew I shouldn’t be

Every other day I crossed the line

I didn’t mean to be so bad

I never thought you would

Become the friend I never had

Back then I didn’t know why

Why you were misunderstood (Mama)

So now I see through your eyes

All that you did was love”

I couldn’t agree more about the words. I also ever thought my mom was like ‘joy-killer’. I can’t understand why she keep saying “No” for (almost) everything. Then, by times, I realize it was for my good.

3. Viva Forever *

“Do you still remember, how we used to be

Feeling together, believing whatever

My love has said to me

Both of us were dreamers

Young love in the sun

Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave you

We’d only just begun”

If am not mistaken, this song was their last song with Geri Halliwell. What I remember, when I was kid, I assume this song talked about how great relationship you had with someone, though you have to say goodbye, your heart never truly apart. And now, I feel not sure, but however, I still like this song.

My favourite video: Stop *

I like how they do the movement. I like their costume, all of them especially Emma. They all look cute and gorgeous in this clip. I like how they look playful and fun. This song was also about girl that told some boy to “take it easy”.

“Stop right now, thank you very much

I need somebody with a human touch

Hey, you always on the run

Gotta slow it down baby, gotta have some fun”

My favourite one: Emma ‘Baby Spice’ Bunton

Her cute voice, lovely eyes and her ‘girly girl’ style made me choose her as my role model for years. I really wanna be like her. Wanna have long and blonde hair, wears cute dress, love pink or soft colours. And else..

If you want to follow them on twitter:

@OfficialMelB *| @MelanieCmusic *| @EmmaBunton *| @victoriabeckham *| @gerihalliwell *

If you visit their web, you will find the link to ‘Viva Forever! The Musical’. It is some musical based on the songs of Spice Girls. Written by comedienne Jennifer Saunders and produced by MAMMA MIA! creator Judy Craymer. Visit their facebook fan page here: VivaForeverTheMusical *